An aspirant seeking initiation into the mystery wisdom of the ancients attempts to cross the Threshold consciously through transcendent meditation, spiritual practices, and initiation. Initiation is not for the weak-hearted, scared, or lazy person.

The preparations for initiation can be extremely demanding and complicated, and in the end, the aspirant may faint at the Threshold and not be able to resolve the sins the Guardian displays before the quaking consciousness of the aspirant.

Many try and fail.

Sometimes, the aspirant may “loose their mind” in the process of attempting to cross the Threshold before they are ready. And, even if the aspirant makes it across the Threshold it doesn’t mean they have the moral strength to remember what they experienced in the spiritual world while they were there.

Only the selfless desire to gain wisdom for the sake of all other being’s welfare will keep the aspirant conscious in the spiritual world and help the aspirant remember the communion he had with the beings in that world.

Ultimately, Lucifer was totally alone. He had suffered so long that he barely knew his name or whether any of what he believed was true. He doubted everything about himself, and there was no one with him to remind him of his past glory. Lucifer now understood what it meant to be human, limited by a mortal body. Something died in his soul and he no longer desired to possess anything or gain any more knowledge. He desired nothing and felt as if all that he had experienced as a human was worth nothing. Total emptiness filled his soul.